i’ve been afraid of changing cause i’ve built my life around you
- landslide / smashing pumpkins

SAT-FAMILY DAY

went to pagsanjan garden (venue of the late tabing ilog tv show).
quality time with my family. finally saw ck & pia after a year.

FRI-FINE DINE DATE

@Ilustrado, Intramuros. moments. cheesness. blissness.

APR 18 – STIR CRAZY

oficemates / friends

APR15 – BYE TO TATAY dell’s father’s internment at La Loma Cemetery, Caloocan. me – as the official photographer.and its my first time. sana lang okay ang output .

HOLY WEEK the rest of the holidays was spent with him / his family. the only time i went home was when i get few clothes and fetch papa. he visited dell’s tatay’s wake too

towards the edge, do I assume I could fly
- beauty on the fire /n.imbruglia

7 things you did today:

listened to natalie imbruglia the whole day
text ng text.
design. design. and design uli.
nag jeep at mrt.
ate cake & ice cream.
went to bank.
nag blog.

7 things in your desk today:
cellphone. coke in can. bag. papers. alcohol. usb headset.

7 phrases/sentence you said today:
may pasok bukas?
papasok ka ba bukas?
bat di ka papasok?
ikaw, papasok ka?
walang mrt bukas. pasok ka na bukas.
san ako sasakay bukas?

(ang kulit noh.) haha. im too shy. and those kind of phrases are only made for trying to start a conversation.. hay, ewan.

it’s that little souvenir of a terrible year which makes my eyes feel sore
here’s where the story ends – sundays

I told papa re: Dell’s dad being in in the ICU and after several exchanges of point of views, I’ve found out a secret, which he kept for so many years. He said, few months before my mother died in 1990, he already knew that it was terminal; that mama has least chances and will die soon but he tell no one, even us, his children. Ahm yeah, he has his own reasons. Being just a kid then, I know I cannot yet understand the concept of a dying mother. Ohidontknow. But i think it was unfair, somehow. Its another matter of lot of could-have-beens for me, and my brothers and sister. I should have stayed home than playing outside, spent more time with her, ask her to storytell, etc. but then, what can I do, I asked. Wala. Its all said and done. People die – and that’s reality. Just like last saturday, dell’s dad passed away. Sigh. I was so worried for him. He loves his father so much. T’was a busy weekend for me. Spent it with him and his family. Bought biscuits, flowers; helped around with the chores, accompanied him to the market, bought needed stuffs, secured his dad’s death certificate, did the cutting of tag/ ribbons of names of family members and pinned those in the coffin. I was uncomfortable at first coz I really cant stare a dead body that long.. but hey, I went fine. bait nman si tatay. I know, he’ll say hello for me to my mom in heaven. Here’s, where their story ends.