August has ended and here comes the Ber season, the most special season of all the seasons for me.

September – This month is a fiesta month of my hometown (Naga, Cam Sur). It’s called Peñafrancia Festival, the feast of Virgin de Peñafrancia. The Patroness of Bicolandia played a very important role when I was born. Stories said that – during that time when the doctor told my parents that either me or my Mama will die (because she was suffering from heart ailment and I was only 7 months) my father and his sister went to church to borrow the clothes of the Patroness and placed it on my mother’s womb :) Mama stayed for 10 years after that while here I am still alive and kicking :p

October – Two very special people celebrates their birthday on this month. My father on the 26th and husband’s on the 3rd:p

November – My mother’s birthday every 4th. I can’t stop thanking her for giving me this opportunity to live in this beautiful world :p A good friend of mine, Alona, who gave us our wedding bible is celebrating her birthday too on this month :p

December – Aside from the Christmas holidays, this is also our wedding and engagement month. Boyfriend proposed 22nd of December 2007 and after a year of wedding planning and preparation, we got married 11th of December 2008.  So, one year anniv is coming :)

Time to make Christmas list! Wishes and gifts like maybe some new versions of netbooks or oh hi hello iPhone :p

P.S
There’s this silly quiz at Facebook telling that I’ll get pregnant on Dec 2009. Sana mag-dilang anghel di ba :p It will be a very wonderful addition to my special Ber Season :) Tho I’m scared :p Did you know that getting pregnant, imagining labor and pain, is my greatest fear ever? I’ll tell you about it some other time. Hmm, or maybe you can take a hint from the September story above :p

Afternoon rains are crazy lately and the thunder is really loud and scary.

Anyway,  today millions of people worldwide witness the memorial for Michael Jackson, who died few days ago. I’m really not a fan so I wasn’t really that excited to join the fuss, drama and tributes. But of course I am aware of his popularity and some of his songs specifically the song that helped me to bag the Miss Talent Award when I was 12.  That day, ugh. How can I forget. It was the most embarrassing moment I ever had.

Once upon a time, there was this pageant thing called Miss United Nation in our school…and the whole grade 6 class and teachers voted me to be the class/level representative to compete with other levels. (e.g two grade 5′s are Miss Taiwan, Miss India, etc. And since I’m tall, I was Miss United States :p

But nah, I didn’t win the Miss U.N title. Why,because I failed to answer the Q at the Q&A portion! (shame, shame). Aah yes, I can still remember the question that goes like this:

“Aside from DOH and WHO, can you give a list of other health organizations?”

*me dies, whatta, meron pa bang iba? city of health? red cross? center that sells diet pills?*

Argh, blame it on the total blackout + pressure and okay fine, I forgot to study..until now I still don’t know the answer. Haha. Wait, I’ll google later.

Hay, never mind, at least I won Miss Talent and ended as 1st runner up. I made the judges cry of my song interpretation of MJ’s Heal the World. :p I could still remember wearing a torn dirty white big shirt, dancing, crying, acting like hungry crazy and begging for food.  (thanks to my sister for the choreography!)

*Ooh, which reminds me I’ve already done this twice! When I was in college, I also played the role of Sisa (Rizal History Play)*

What so funny about this is that I really cried when I was doing those roles, career talaga! And hey, those are tough roles ah. Mahirap kayang maging luka luka :p

Hmm actually, madali lang pala. Lakad lakad sa kawalan. Bulungan mo yung sarili mo,  sideways stare with matching kamot kamot sa ulo, cry and laugh at the same time, guguluhin ang buhok then make lumpasay sa sahig and ikot ikot LOL.

Okay, enough. Must sleep now and end this crazy entry.

Bat ganun.

May mga taong masyadong sensitive, feeling laging inaapi at laging misinterepretation ang nasasagap na signal. Eto rin kadalasan yung hindi marunong tumanggap ng kritiko,  komento o suhestyon.

Meron rin naman iba na masyadong epal, yung gusto palagi siyang may say at papel para lang ipaalala na may essence ang existence niya at hindi lamang siya isang hamak na furniture sa earth.

Kasamahan din nito yung mga righteous na lahat na lang na makikitang saliwat  sa kanyang  sariling paningin at panlasa ay kinukutya.

Hindi rin siyempre magpapahuli yung mga excited mag reiterate na sila  ay tama at sila ang may pinakamagandang opinyon sa sanlibutan.

Pinsan nito ay- yung ipipilit talaga ang sariling opinyon at argumento without considering other factors kahit pa ikamatay niya eto.

At dahil sa mga yan, lalabas na rin yung mga taong pikon. Makikipag-away.  Makiki-debate. Hanggang sa personalan na ang kinahahantungan.

Although meron din talagang iba na walang pakialam sa sociodad at communidad kahit pa mag gyera ang nasa paligid nya dahil ang iniisip lamang niya ay ang sarili kapakanan.

Nakakaloka rin yung mga trying hard, kapatid ni epal to eh, yung pilit na makikisawsaw para kunwari sikat din siya kasi nakikisalamuha at may exchange of conversation na siya sa mga sikat.

Meron din yung mga eengot engot na ignorance of everything ang drama at ayaw maging informative. Kabaligtaran nito kasi ay yung iba naman na isa ring excited na ipaalam sa mundo na siya ay isang gifted right and bright.

Siyempre meron din yung mga sarcastic at yung mga taong dinadaan ang karamihan ng bagay sa just -for-fun sa kadahilanang well, hindi natin alam.

Hindi rin papatalo yung mga bitter na kahit kelan ay hindi magiging masaya for you.

O kaya yung mga taong double negative kagaya ng word na irregardless na ang tanging nakikita lamang ay ang lahat ng panget sa mundo.

O kaya yung mga taong insecure na nakatira sa hatred community na naiinis sayo and everything about you kahit wala ka namang ginagawang masama sa kanila – yun bang tipong wala lang naiinis lang siya sayo and yeah you just have to deal with it.

O kaya yung mga feelingers na wala ng ibang ginawa sa mundo kundi pagkatiwalaan lang ang feelings nya. Yung tipong feeling niya maarte ka at mayabang kaya ayaw niya sayo. O kaya feeling niya sinungaling ka at kung ano ano pang feeling.

Andyan rin yung mga winner na ever proud winner. At yung losers na hindi matanggap na siya ay loser. Idagdag na rin natin ang mga gaya-gaya, OA, mapag-panggap, inggitera, tsismosa,  ksp,  atbp.

Bat ganun.

Ang hirap lagyan ng question mark.

Mahirap bang maging cool lang. Yung tipong hindi ka naman anghel sa sobrang nice, pero hindi ka rin epal, hindi OA, hindi insecure, hindi trying hard, hindi nangkukutya, hindi pala-away, hindi papansin, alam mo ang meaning ng “to each his own”  and syempre at the same time hindi ka rin sobrang sensitive o pikon  at kayang tanggapin ang kritiko at pagbabago.

Hay ewan ko sainyo. Ngayon ko lang napagtanto na nakakapagod pala ang trabaho ng isang psychologist o sociologist. Imagine buong oras nya iguguhol lamang sa stress sa pag analyze ng mga walang entang personalidad ng isang indibidwal o ng isang sociedad.